having a difficult time with motivation, creativity, learning. all the things that professionally i am meant to intervene with.

i cried for a few seconds before beginning to write this, it felt like an outbreak of emotion because i had allowed myself to feel things, just this one moment lying in bed. the more the tears come forth and the body aches briefly in reflex, the more tired i feel. 

if anything perhaps i am most frustrated with my mind, that thinks about everything but decides on nearly nothing.

fading for the night