examen xxi

God bless those with the strength to write through their trials, their pain, their struggles. because it helps. i am humbled by this and deeply regret not being able to write the past years, though K had always told me i should. it wouldn't have been just for me. it would have been for us, too.

last night at the height of blistering sores, i was looking for accounts that would illustrate the typical course of this virus. i was grateful to find out that my case has really been very mild and i have been spared the bulk of discomfort that comes in the form of sores and blisters in my mouth cavity - on the lips, on the tongue, on the throat. thank You Lord that i have been able to eat with the minimal discomfort of swallowing with a sore throat, and some tenderness on the sides of the tongue.

here is the post that was helpful to me. not so much for the recount that i could relate to, but for this poem at the end:

I asked God for strength, that I might achieve.I was made weak, that I might learn humbly to obey.

I asked God for health, that I might do greater things.I was given infirmity, that I might do the better things.

I asked for riches, that I might be happy.I was given poverty, that I might be wise. 

I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men.I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life.I was given life, that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I had hoped for.Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.

I am among all men most richly blessed.