im-perfect

i am hoping that today will not be a stressful day with my parents. my dad has agreed to drive to cubao despite the late hour of 9:30, after me making an appearance at open house. we will also have to stop by an atm to withdraw money. 

starting with that paragraph makes my mind feel like it is going faster than it should be at this point in the day. would like to rewind my brain and get centered. 

He has struck us but He will bind our wounds. what about the capability of human beings must be struck down by God? i know this verse but i absorb it with inquisitiveness this moment.

i feel that human capability is something satan has penetrated and can use as a tool against us. capability has grown to have so many layers as the world has grown. in the beginning of us there was contentment. there was the voice of God and it was enough. the world has grown to have many voices. God is still there but the power of man that was a gift and a direct line to the divine was twisted and imprisoned to become a horizontal power rather than a veritcal power. i wonder what the face of wisdom would be without eve's apple.

maybe it would he meekness. meekness as they describe Jesus in the bible.

wisdom feels like a reconciliation between the knowledge from the apple and the gift of power from being made in His image.

we are the kingdom of God. 

the more He binds our wounds, the less we are bound by the world.

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the day started and i got swept away and didnt get to post from this morning.

on the way home at the moment with a potter's wheel by my side. it isnt perfect. it hasnt been kept in the best aesthetic condition at the supplier center. it works though. i was hesitant and was starting to become anxious. i called k to ask if there would be any complications if there isnt an official receipt. she said as long as there's acknowledgement it would be okay. 

perhaps God is really tearing me away from my idealistic nature. and making things turn out not as i expected. it seems to be the theme of my life lately. i feel enlightened this moment in the realisation of this. God is here and he holds this less than perfect wheel. His hold on it makes it perfect. there seems to be nowhere else this can be bought. he brought the owner to the supplier office so he could communicate with me, after i was disheartened by the seeming impossibility of the service of the other employees there when i first arrived (had to leave and go back because apparently at 1130 youre already preparig to have an hour lunch break and can't serve customers).

my life is incredibly imperfect right now because God is here and He is perfect.