out loud

i've decided to wait around for my mom who is currently just entering skyway on the way home. i have chosen to sit here and write, rather than take the time to walk home. both activities seem beneficial in some way but this moment i have felt i need to prioritise this writing first. since this is the more articulate activity. and i need to articulate. if i don't, i'll be pushing thoughts away.

today i found myself saying things out loud as an attempt for more clarity in my head. it worked. maybe it is a practice i need to do more often. 

i hope to get some rest tonight, rest in a way that my mind is not anxious or calculating. i have some tasks to do that can be done without thinking so maybe i can listen to a podcast or watch a film or documentary or some kind of talk. and there needs to be time to read tonight.