words

i have minimised everything on my screen to leave only music and this blank white box to write in. i always leave things open on my laptop to return to them at a later time… it’s as if i never finish a thought, or don’t trust myself to remember what i have to return to at a later time.

i also did a shoulder stand for two minutes in my room after i changed out of my work clothes. i was seeking relief for the end of the day. but i realised that doesn’t do it because i sit down most of the time. so it’s either the downward dog, or maybe i will also try the backward bend (i think that is what it’s called). to stretch my back and relieve the hip area.

the day was quick. full of words.  it was nice to start it with a beloved soul song, oceans. briefly i was reminded of being on the shore of brighton beach and looking out at the blue horizon. i had thought about all the work to be completed for the institution, the presence of which i could feel behind me (the school was a 4-minute walk from the beach). and i thought about crossing the waters, all the way down south around europe and into the pacific. how the water connected me to home. how it was just one body. i paid attention to the now and felt the small voice of the ukelele that k played. felt the presence of all the people in the room, both new and old to me. this is my life right now. nearly a year ago the song entered my ears and it was a completely different context.