i shouldnt be awake. there is a clock that looms above me and i wish that if i just stopped it from moving, the whole world would as well. my brain is gurgling from all the stuff that wants attention.
another difficult encounter tonight with k and as usual i didn't see it coming. am i really this stupid? why can't i think ahead? why is everything i am doing just plain wrong and why can't i ever correct it or just plainly do something right for a change?
in moments like this i don't even feel like i know what to say anymore. everything has either been said for me, or has been said before, or doesn't help the situation at all. i struggle with how to act or simply respond when i am facing the consequences of my inadequacy.
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